eye cannot see

Today I am going to tell you about my appointment at the eye doctor. I am not expecting sympathy or anything just relating the facts. I am trying hard to feel fine about things but I was depressed. I remember when I was taking care of my mother and she was having trouble with her eyes. She said she could take anything as long as she could see. I kind of feel the same way. The good thing is I have perfect vision in one eye so what do I have to feel bad about? So...back to the doctor appointment. I am having a lot of trouble with my left eye. When I developed MS I had optic neuritis in that eye, the optic nerve has been "pale" every since but I was able to see fine. Then I had cataract surgery and for a brief time my vision was almost like new. Now it seems I have developed a wrinkling of the retina on that eye. The doctor said something about the vitreous fluid and the wrinkling causing my problem. I am to see another Ophthalmologist who specializes in the retina. It will probably have to get much worse before surgery but I guess surgery is the only fix for my problem. As of now I have lost my confidence in driving very far. I have to read with one eye. When walking I feel unsure because I see the ground at two different levels! I try to look at people normally when talking to them but it is hard since I see with one good eye and one not so good eye and it is almost enough to make me sea sick. That is what I am putting up with and have been for some time now. The computer screen presents a problem too so I have to make adjustments for that. Okay...I have complained enough now so I am going to stop. I am going to go meditate on all the blessings I do have and think positive thoughts .